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Monday, October 25, 2010
This was supposed to post last night! Oh well since I'm at a loss for words and recovering from a terrible xanex headach here goes
I'm sitting here trying to read blogs and answer comments on mine. I simply can't do it.
I was cooking dinner when a panic attack began to rear it's ugly head. It's been around 2 years since I last had a full blown panic attack. I have anxiety all the time, but panic attacks are rare luckily.
The attacks pretty much go hand in hand with bipolar but I've been able make it through some time without one. Tonight we got some news that pretty much rocked my world. We'll come through it somehow, not sure how at the moment, but we will come through it.
If you've never had a panic attack you're one very lucky individual. They make me feel like I'm dying. I can't breathe, my heart races, my chest hurts and the surroundings begin closing in. It's like being in a fun house without the fun.
So I left the dinner table, downed some medication and curled up on my bed until it began to wane. After it slowed I thought it would be soothing to try to read. Well, ativan, a double dose of xanex and reading don't go hand in hand.
So tonight I'm sleeping. It's 7:30 and I'm out for the night. I guess I'll schedule this to post late tonight since I've already posted once today. As for typos, grammar, spelling and all that shit...forgetta 'bout it, I am.
Night all,
19 comments:
Sometimes that is all you can do to knock yourself out. I hope you had a good nights sleep!
You really can't explain a panic attack to someone who has never experienced one. They are horrible!!
Hope the Xanax/nap combo works...
Yeah Tricia, you're right. Fun house was about as close as I could come to it. Everything moves, everything is distorted and the world is off balance. They suck!
Panic attacks are awful!
Mental Illness SUCKS!
((Diva)) Love you.
I don't have them but my daughter dose. (she is bipolar too). I'm sorry.
I hope that you slept well! Sometimes your body just needs to rest as much as possible. I hate panic attacks more than anything. It feels like you are dieing!
That's unfortunate. I've never had one, but my fiance does when dealing with his PTSD. He used to have many small ones daily! So I can sorta relate :(
I feel for you. I know how my daughter gets with her anxiety and anxiety attacks. Even the Xanax headaches. Its a bitch. Cyber hug is all I can offer. Guess my kid will get the real thing for both of you.
I can only say I feel for you. I was laid off work with work related stress a couple of months ago. Since when I have anxiety, loss of confidence, varying degrees of depression and a few panic attacks. All of it fairly mild by comparison, but new to me and scary.
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I have no idea what to say since I've never had a panic attack, but I've watched my best friend have one and it looked scary from the outside, so it must have been pretty bad from the inside... I hope you're feeling better today.
I started having them about a year after Amanda died. It was rough. I spent almost a year with them. They are very scary. I'm sorry you had one. I get weirded out just thinking about it.
I'm sorry, I suffer from panic attacks and I don't wish them on anyone.
I hope today is a better day for you.
Teri, I have had 2 in my life- scary thing was both were on my bike.....never experienced anything like it....
Now that is some crappy stuff. It sounds just awful. Take care of yourself, Diva. And your family.
So sorry Hon! The helplessness has got to be nearly unbearable!
I have nasty panic attacks due to my needle-phobia. This doesn't win me any points with doctors and medical staff which makes it even harder for me to great treatment.
The guilt and fear that rolls in with these attacks is an absolute nightmare. In the end, we have to do what we can to get through it and keep on going.
Most important things to remember: you're not a bad person and you're not alone.
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