Playing Doctor
Sunday, November 25, 2012
He mentioned the TD last time I was there and told me to take 100 mgs of B6 twice a day, which I've been doing, but it's not helping.
So starting tomorrow I'll only take half my regular dosage of Geodon and see if it 1) helps the TD and 2) if I remain stable on that low of a dose.
When I see him in January I'll ask him if I can stop it altogether. It only is supposed to help control my mania, but I'm on another med that does the same thing AND protects the neuro transmitters in the brain so I think I'm going to be ok.
I certainly don't want the TD to get worse, sometimes it can be permanent and I really don't want that to be the case, but I can't take this side effect. It's bothersome, tiring and a pain in the butt.
There are so many days I wish I could go back to before I was diagnosed and be on nothing but Wellbutrin, but then my mania was off the chart and my spending sprees were out of control, I was actually out of control in so many ways, that many of you know about, thanks to the symptoms of bipolar disorder II. Until I got my medications correct there were terrible misjudgments, extreme highs and extreme lows, life was scary for everyone in my family at that time.
I'm hoping the other medication, Lamictal, will be able to control my mania well enough so that I can eliminate another medication from my trove of medications.
Wish me luck, I'm winging it here!
11 comments:
Diva, please don't worry about being a bother to him and just tell him exactly how this is making you feel. It sounds like a pretty scary time for you in all honesty, I'd hate to have whatever it is you're having, the tightening of your tongue does not sound fun. Please discontinue using that pill the minute you can see a doctor, it sounds horrible, sorry to hear you're going through this.
If you lived with me I'd try to convince you to wean off all the drugs, then start from scratch if needed.
A process that would take months or a year or so.
Your doctors are fukt, just guessing and taking your money. I think.
I am so sorry you are having these issues with medication. All the best and I hope you can get this all worked out. Hang in there.
Diva, this is one time when you should email your doctor. (A) You have early symptoms of a disease that could get much worse and be lifelong. (B) You're playing with your dosage, which we all do sometimes, but in this case, I would really like to see you contact your doctor because you don't know if a half-dosage would give you the help you need, and you don't know whether a half dosage would slow down the TD. It could be that you need to go off this drug altogether and start on some other drug.
I may end up emailing him, I just hate to though. It gets worse when I'm stressed or tired and I know it can get worse over time. It just worries me that it's very possible it will never go away and that continuing the meds may only make it worse.
i hope you are able to get all this straightened out soon!
Thanks Anna!
Ok, so I just emailed the doctor. We'll see what he has to say.
If anyone can get through this, it's you!! Still yet, I think a shopping spree will be the best medicine!
Removing one item
from your "trove of treasures"
would be
no Diva's loss.
Especially
if the deletion
makes you
feel better.
I choose to withdraw
with my nine or ten
pills per
day.
Not the smartest
Bear in the woods,
but I know
when it's
time to
hibernate.
Diva,
sometimes Life Sucks.
Thinking of you, dear. Xxx Kisses
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