Where was Sacajawea when I needed her?

t's been a really difficult bipolar week for me. Blood stuff still being done. Still no answers. Stress level is through the roof. Bottom line is that I feel a crash coming on and I really want to try to avoid it. I needed an emergency meeting with my doc today.  Here's a few reasons I know it's coming:

• I've been teary all week.
• I freaking thought a balloon was a ghost and screamed like a girl, wait I am a girl. 
• I saw a stuffed cat in my closet and screamed again. Seems emotional girl thought it was a rat or something. The cat has only been in there for like three years and is about the size of, well the size of a rat.
• Jeff kissed me this morning while I was sleeping before he went to work. I thought somehow the standard poodle made her into my room and was licking me. Yep, you guess it I screamed again. This time though I also added a little karate chop motion with the scream and belted my husband. 
• And there have been a few more things that maybe I'll save for another time. Basically stress, stress and more stress.

hile I was at the doc's office I mentioned that some of the kids were going to the river and she strongly suggested that I go with them. She didn't want me being alone. Since she's the one I pay the big bucks to  keep me sane I agreed. After all she knows best right?

So I was still pretty pissy when I got home. I really didn't want to go, but being the good patient I went. The kids and I put this vlog together while we were there. It's a little disjointed since we only had one camera, I left mine in the car so it wouldn't get ruined. 

All in all the day went better. When I got home Jeff and I decided to take the bikes up to this little biker bar. Seems the battery on my bike was dead (someone left the ignition on...hmmmm) so I had to double up with Jeff. 

The new med, Geodon, is supposed to sedate me, but as you can see by the time of this post it's not freaking working. So I'm up posting a vlog.  

Here is is. I sure hope that it makes some sense.

Did you happen to catch that last part from Karli? Seems my daughter was dropping water bottles in the woods like bread crumbs hoping that we'd catch a clue and follow them. Brilliant, just brilliant. I didn't catch on, Jeremiah did. I was just wondering the entire time we were wandering through the woods with no shoes, carrying a bajillion pounds of rafts and other crap why I EVER let Karli lead us anywhere. Girl has NO sense of direction! Turns out had we floated around the bend we would have found the boat ramp. That's my girl.

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