Just The Random Shit Please

I'm sitting on a plane on my way to Texas to see my newest niece and I can't wait! I also get to see the rest of the family and of course The Brat!

I only have random thoughts running through my mind at the moment so you, should you decide to continue reading this shit, shall be victim to my randomness. I'll save the best and most shocking item for the end. So If I were you I'd keep reading.

• First off I really, really have to pee. Normally that wouldn't be a problem but at the moment I am, as I said, stuck on an airplane, in the window seat, by some rather large people. hmph.
• I think that if a kid is old enough to put it's own diaper on then it's old enough to be potty trained...just sayin'. Heard that one in Target yesterday. "Put your diaper on. Good job. Now fasten the tabs. Good job." Bad parent, lazy parent, either that or a fucking brilliant infant. 
• Why do some people seem to be compelled to give me advice that I didn't ask for? I mean, isn't that a parent's job? I don't have parents so if I want your advice I will ask for it. Now that brings me to the topic to me being a parent. Kids, remember that it's my job, since I'm your mom and all, to give you advice. Suck it up and listen because you really might learn something.
• I've lost so much weight that none of my rings fit any longer, but that's not why I took one set off. Think on that one a while. 
• Did I mention that I really have to pee? This is going to be a long flight. 
• I love wearing my black nail polish. I think it fits me.
• I LOVE my Glock!

And last, but certainly not least, what you've been reading through this shit to get to:

• It's been almost three years since I was diagnosed with bipolar and my new psychiatrist asked me yesterday if I was comfortable with my diagnosis. WTF? Isn't that her job? She went on to say that it may only be post traumatic stress disorder, or a very mild form of bipolar and that mild bipolar is difficult to diagnose.  Well I already knew it was a mild form of bipolar. What in the hell will I do if it turns out not to be bipolar? Does that mean I lose all of my creativity? Does that mean that I won't be as outgoing? Does that mean that I'll no longer be addicted to shoes? Does that mean that I won't be me? And what about my blog title? The way I see it "The Post Traumatic Stress Disorder Diva" just doesn't have the same ring to it. I kind of like my header picture with the diamonds spilling from the pill bottle too. For the record, I freaking love my new psychiatrist, she just threw me for a loop with that one.

Ok, enough random shit. Should any of you feel compelled to give me advice feel free to do so, as long as it doesn't have to do with my choice of language. I wasn't writing about any of you anyway.

Until next time,

WAIT! I almost forgot! I want you all to go look at two things. My grandson has a blog called "House Of Monkies." My friend Dee made him his page! She's awesome with that sort of stuff. So go check them  out, and follow them if ya want! I know Dee would love you to follow her, she so rocks. If you want a page made talk to her. Little Jakob can use the encouragement of new followers with all he's been through.

Love you all!

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Thoughts, irritants and LBJ

Irritants of the day:

• Trying to get my iTunes moved to a new computer. Grrrrr!
• Trying to potty train a very stubborn Yorkie puppy.
• My corgi is being a pain in the ass.
• I can't eat.
• 12 year old boys can have shitty attitudes.
• My keyboard is screwed up. The cursor keeps moving and I end up typing in the middle of other words and have to re-do the whole thing.
• Trying to pay $23,000 in bills with only $21,000
• Having to take money out of savings again.
• For some reason today I'm really pissed about being bipolar and having to juggle all these meds trying to find the right combination.
• My four pound puppy is taking up all of my bed.
• I'm missing my dad A LOT.
• Michael's truck needs breaks.
• My car needs brakes AND new tires!
• My husband wants to put up a fence and we have massive bills to pay first.
• Owning a business keeps my pharmacist busy filling my xanex.
• I saw and promptly remove a gray eye brow today!

Great things about today:

• Anna-Grace is a normal two year old.
• Jakob punched a bully in the face.
• Josiah wanted me to cut a lemon so he could taste it.
• I feel better than I have in months! I think we may finally have the right cocktail of medications to control my craziness!
• The eBay guy is going to refund my money.
• Valium
• Jeremiah actually helped watch the puppy HE pushed for.
• I didn't have to cook dinner.
• My eyelashes have really gotten long, Latisse ROCKS!

Thoughts of the day:

• Iris
• Ayden
• My daughter has to have another surgery. This will be, i think, number 16 in the last five years.
• Snowbrush reminds me of my dad.
• LBJ was, in my opinion, a piece of  s#!t, I think I'll post something about that in the next few days.
• I hope my husband will have coffee with me in the morning
• I'm glad that my daughter won't be moving to Texas. I need her.
• Where's my valium? I need to sleep.
• Hoping that Green-Eyed Momster made it though yesterday ok.
• I think I want a horse and I think that's a impulsive bipolar thought!
• I will not let bipolar II or autism get the best of me!
• I REALLY need more Christian Louboutins, well I guess that's a want. And they should probably come after the fence.
• Lights out

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